We Need GoFundMe because Grandma Doesn’t Qualify for Medicaid

Thank you for the first donation

First off, I’d like to thank my first donator. I hope you don’t mind me using your name, but Crystal Fuller got the ball rolling. Thank you so much for your kindness. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel by your generosity.

My Grandma’s GoFundMe

I also want to thank the people who have sent me messages through Go Fund Me. I appreciate your concern and prayers. And I’d like to alleviate any misunderstandings of why we can’t take advantage of the free Hospice facilities. We are using the Hospice of East Texas out of Tyler. She has been accepted into Hospice At-Home Care with them. It’s not very convenient because it takes over an hour for the employees to get to her home but we were told they’re the best.

A Little Background Info

Husband and Wife – Clyde and Mary

In 1988 before my grandpa died from asbestos poisoning, he made sure that his wife would be taken care of for the rest of her life. It’s not much, especially since he died in the 20th century when the cost of living was so much less expensive than it is today. But it was enough to pay her bills until she dies, which are low. There’s also enough to cover some medical needs and her burial. 

She wants to be buried next to her husband at Old North Church in Nacogdoches, Tx.

Her Dead Husband’s Grave

He didn’t prepare for this though. He never would have imagined that her Medicare insurance for the elderly wouldn’t be enough to take care of her elderly medical needs. We all know how complicated insurance is these days. And we all know how little it actually covers. 

Why Do We Need Donations?

I want you to understand what you’re donating for. My grandma does not qualify for Medicaid. She’s not rich. But the preparations her husband made to take care of her after he died, stop her from being able to qualify.

  • We’ve had three social workers exhaust their options.
  • My mom has researched her butt off and ran into the same obstacles as the social workers.
  • We even spoke to a lawyer who also told us there’s nothing we can do to qualify. 

She’s stuck in a Catch 22. Not poor enough to qualify for Medicaid, and not rich enough to pay for the facility. Without Medicaid, we just cannot afford the cost of a facility. In some locations the prices are a little lower and we wouldn’t be able to afford those lower prices either. In our area, we are looking at about $60,000 a year or more. I’m not sure how long she needs, but I’m guessing under 6 months.

What does Hospice Provide for Us?

  • A nurse visits once a week. 
  • An aid visits only during the week once a day to clean her including the cleaning supplies.
  • They provide medicine. 
  • We also get 5 days of respite care each month. My grandma gets transported to a nursing home, so that the family can get 5 days of rest. That’s what her insurance covers. 

Paying out of Pocket

Since Hospice doesn’t send an aid out on weekends, we have to pay for that out of pocket. Just to give you an idea. We can only afford one hour for each day. At first, we were going to get 4 hours but we just can’t afford it. Maybe once or twice. But if we do that every single weekend we’re going to run out of money fast. So, we do the bare minimum. 

If we pay for someone to give her pain and dementia medicine, we can’t even afford one time. Because she get’s it daily more than once and it’s over $100 for each time. So, that’s just not an option. It’s so important for her to be administered these drugs in a facility. We work hard to do it right, but we are not a substitute for trained professionals. 

She also does not allow us to clean her up. She has incontinence and that is getting worse because it’s directly damaged by her handicap. Her handicap is located in her pelvis and legs and now her spine because the scoliosis is starting to spread. 

Family as Caregivers

Her family is just me and my mom. The picture below was a gift my grandpa gave to his wife and daughter – a trip to Hawaii because she always wanted to go there. And they met Don Ho and had dinner together.

Don Ho, Mary, and her Daughter

My grandma’s family is all gone . . . all of her siblings have died, except for one. But he’s elderly, out of town, and not available to help. She lost her younger sister who stayed in touch with her all the time through phone calls, mail, and she came to visit regularly.

Her Sister – My Aunt Herminia with her husband Dale

She died the same year my grandma’s son died which was almost two years ago. Everyone knows how hard it can be for a parent when their child dies before them. And his children are dealing with his death and other health problems that just make it impossible for them to add more to their burden.

So basically our lives have stopped. We are doing nothing but caring for my grandma 24/7. I’ve abandoned my home. My work. My dad. My boyfriend. My friends. My godchildren. My own health and well – being. 

My poor dog Sunny has been uprooted from her happy and stress free life in the country to being in town with loud town noises. She feels our stress and while she makes a wonderful therapy dog for us and for my grandma, it’s just taken a toll on her. And her breed is prone to getting a hole in the heart when they get older. The vet told us 3 years ago, because it showed up. I do my best to pray over her daily and always make sure she gets her walks and eats healthy.

Sunny using her Beagle nose

I want her to live a long healthy life. But we are struggling to give her that extra love and care right now. 

What Can You Do?

  • Share the link with everyone you can think of.
  • Donate what you can. $1, $5, $20. Whatever you can afford and feel comfortable with. Every little bit counts and adds up.
  • Pray. If you can’t donate, I understand. But we always appreciate prayer.

Grandma’s GoFundMe

I hope that helps everyone know why we can’t afford the Hospice care in a facility. Thank you for reading, sharing, donating, and praying. Sometimes we have to help each other out in this world where so many people are struggling.

Good View of my Dog’s Butt

 

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Look at that dog’s butt! She just loves digging. She’d dig to China if I didn’t stop her. I think it’s so funny because she makes a complete circle and eventually I get a good view of her butt and a mouth full of dirt.
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She’s such a cutie pie.

A Hunting We Did Go

WARNING: This post contains some graphic images, which may be unsuitable for younger or more sensitive readers.

Sunny wakes up every morning ready to hunt, but as for me . . . ehh, not so much.

About 6 years ago, I went squirrel and deer hunting. I’ve always been a good shot, and yes, I did shoot my first squirrel, but it’s not something I want to do again.

I’d much rather shoot with my camera!
 

I usually start my day with a strong cup of coffee and this verse on my mind:

This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalm 118:24 (NIV)

I see so much beauty all around me in every little detail. I can’t help but rejoice when I look out my window and see beautiful East Texas. Looks like a great time to go for a walk . . . NOT a hunt.

I love to get my Jackabee all worked up (cuz it’s sooo cute). So, I yell in a high pitched crescendo, “Wanna’ go for a walk?!”

Sunny excitedly shows her answer through exaggerated tail wagging, fast twirling, and high jumping. Her patience is tested to the max as I s-l-o-w-l-y grab my iPod, my camera, and my sunglasses. The second I open the door she’s outa’ there like a torpedo. This 19 lb dog with Herculean strength is pulling me up the hill to the road, where her adventure will begin.

Copyright:  2013 Morgana Horn
© 2013 Morgana Horn

I manage to take one picture and enjoy the sun and music for only a minute when her nose catches some fascinating scent, and she suddenly jerks me to the left.

Quickly, I untangle my ear buds, my camera strap, and my dog’s lead and begin frantically snapping pictures of Sunny and the rabbit hole she has found. (I hope I get some good pictures.)

Copyright: 2013 Morgana Horn
© 2013 Morgana Horn

(I’m not really in the mood to hunt right now, but that is indeed what we are doing.)

Copyright: 2013 Morgana Horn
© 2013 Morgana Horn

Copyright: 2013 Morgana Horn
© 2013 Morgana Horn

Whew!  Today’s hunt is done.

I know Sunny is happy and calm when I see her mouth WIDE open with her tongue hanging out.

Today, Sunny was able to hunt. Some days, she doesn’t get to hunt. The same thing goes for us humans. Some days go better than others. Those other days can seem really bad and get us into crabby moods.

But, we must remember that the LORD made each day, and we CAN rejoice and be glad in it; whether we get to “hunt” or not. I pray that each of you are able to find the joy in each day, and rejoice.

Waiting for That Decisive Moment

Photography is an art, and you can’t rush the process – even with the ready-in-an-instant digital camera. I love the moments when everything comes together quickly and easily for a perfect storm of artistic goodness.

Lately though, my projects require a lot of sitting . . . and waiting . . . and repeating the whole process to get the perfect picture. Improving my art and getting precisely what I want is a challenge, but totally worth it – when the decisive moment shows up.

Henri Cartier-Bresson was known for this concept of the “decisive moment” – that perfect moment when everything comes together to create a picture with balance and clarity. Trust me, patience and determination are definitely required.

Place de l'Europe, Paris, 1932 Copyright Henri Cartier-Bresson/Magnum
Place de l’Europe, Paris, 1932 Copyright Henri Cartier-Bresson/Magnum

Cartier-Bresson sat . . . and waited . . . until he spotted it – the decisive moment. He captured it immediately after the man reached the other side of the ladder.

I like that he took the picture before the man’s foot touched the ground. If the man was trying to avoid splashing in the water, it doesn’t look like he will be successful and land on dry ground.

The reflections in the water, of the man and the scene in the background, give the composition balance and unity. As you study the photograph, you can see how everything comes together to create a visually aesthetic moment in time: the decisive moment. Cartier-Bresson shows us that the photographer’s eye and mind intuitively recognize that moment when it arrives.

You can read more in his book – a great book to have in your home library.

I was recently reminded of Cartier-Bresson’s work when I heard my dog’s loud, screechy bark. I know that sound. She had found the scent of a rabbit. (I don’t want her to get hurt, but I know she needs to hunt.) Squeamishly, I let her go after it. Wildly and happily, she ran through the woods so fast that she was almost flying. How could I say no to that?

Meet Sunny. My smart, wild, and energetic Jackabee.

Sunny, the best doggy in the whole wide world!
Sunny, the best doggy in the whole wide world!
Copyright: Morgana Horn 2012

She looks pretty calm when she’s chewing out her frustration on a bone. BUT, don’t let that sweet face fool you!

Th-th-th-that’s right folks, it’s Wabbit season and my Jackabee and me are hunting wabbits.

Copyright: 2001 Warner Bros, Inc.

‘Toon in next time.